Lyrics by Heather Kennedy

When the pain’s so real
You're stuck inside your head
And you feel so weak
It’s hard to leave your bed

When the times are tough
And you keep trying to pour
From an empty cup
Till you can feel no more

Please be there for you
While you love them too
Keep being an empath
Through and through, so you

Flow like the ocean
When you’re feeling broken
Keep riding the waves
Of your emotions
Just let them take you
Knowing they shaped you
Knowing that what is
Will never break you
No, it won’t break you

I know that there's fear
And much confusion
There’s reason for these tears
It’s no illusion

But if you spread your wings
Then you'll be lifted
Remembering the ways
That you’ve been gifted

And if you love yourself
While you love them too
Then you'll find a peace
No one can take from you

/Chorus/

(Bridge)
It’s been this way from the very start
There's a role we play
In breaking our own hearts
No, it's not that we should pretend
Oh, but can't you see
Hate only hurts us in the end
It only hurts us in the end
So come with me and

Flow like the ocean
When you’re feeling broken
Keep riding the waves
Of your emotions
Just let them take you
Knowing they made you
Knowing that what is
Will never break you
God as my witness
I’ll never quit this
Love is the path
Of least resistance
One day we'll feel better
We’re in this together
Knowing that what is
Won’t last forever
No, it’s not forever

Said we had a good thing
In the beginning
You knew but still I
Needed convincing

Was so much about me
I didn’t know yet
You might be thinking
You dodged a bullet

I really messed up
Drowning in regret
Maybe it’s too late
But I want you to know that

(Chorus)
I remember when
You said you loved me
Got down on one knee
But I had to run free
The me from back then
Didn’t deserve you
Hated herself too
I thought you knew- I thought you knew

Fast forward ten years
Still stuck in this city
Your new girl, your new life
But you belong with me

They say she’s the best thing
That’s happened to you
But being accepting
Is something I can’t do, cause

/Chorus/

(Bridge)
There’s not enough liquor
When I hear you’re with her
Cause I know what could be
When it’s just you and me
So try and move on like you do
But I bet you still feel it too

And now time, either stands still
Or else it’s flying
Don’t you know I laugh
Just to keep from crying

The me from back then
She didn’t know how
To treat you or keep vows
But that ain’t me now- no, that ain’t me now

I remember when
You would look at me
See things I couldn’t see
One day I’d find my way back to you
I thought you knew- I thought you knew

I don’t wanna be alone
With my thoughts tonight
The darkness it comes out
When I turn off the lights

I don't wanna face what's real
Just can't let it go
I can't convince my heart
Of the things my mind knows

Someone please hold my hand
Cause I'm so on edge
And nothing's making sense
Talk me down off the ledge

(Chorus)
Didn’t we go down swinging
Breaking our own hearts
Till we were black and blue
Strangers in the dark
Didn’t we say forever
Wasn’t long enough
Rode it till the feels fell off
And metal turned to rust
I don’t wanna face the truth
For fear it sets us free
Neither wanted to let go
But we had to didn’t we

Now it’s the little things
I thought nothing of
Well they’re the big things now
Reminders of our love

I can’t help but wonder
If we ever stood a chance
But there's no way to know
How it plays out in advance

/chorus/

(Bridge)
No, I can’t stand the TV
Or the radio
All I see is you and me
Everywhere I go
What do I do with this ring
Pictures by my bed
And all the memories
Of the things we said

I refuse to go home
And deal with my thoughts
What if it takes a strength
That I haven’t got

Cause we said forever
Because we believed
If we kept on trying
One day we’d succeed

Didn’t wanna face the truth
Freedom is never free
Or be the one to let go
We held on didn’t we

But didn't we go down swinging
Didn’t we fight for love
And looking back don’t we
Have something to be proud of

I’ve been diggin’ deep
To keep my perspective
I’ve been wondering
What I have left to give

My mind is playing tricks
What’s left is fading fast
How come what’s meant to be
Never seems meant to last

They tell me to have faith
But they don’t know me that well
Lesson learned, or getting burned
Sometimes it’s hard to tell


(Chorus)
I know, I know, I know there’s a light
That shines down on me
Just can’t see it tonight
I know, I know, I know there’s a way
For me to get through
Just can’t find it today
Lord, please tell me why we’re here
And why must we suffer
Will it one day be clear

I’ve been killin’ time
But the hours feel like days
No one understands
It’s more than just a phase

Yeah, I’ve been down before
But never quite like this
So tired of being strong
But I said I wouldn’t quit

/chorus/

(Bridge)
I’m fighting back the tears
Knowing you should be here
But fate had other plans
Say one day I’ll understand
I’m strong, but weak inside
So much we were denied
For reasons not enough
To ever change my love

I know, I know, I know there’s a song
That plays in my heart
It was there all along

I know, I know, yes I know I feel
A fire burning bright
Because of you, it’s real

Deep down, I see that you’re still here
In each part of me
Because that was the deal

*Being recorded soon*

The death of a thousand dreams
Forever’s never what it seems
We made a promise not to be
A statistic, you and me

But we were never shown the way
Our moms and dads led us astray
All the odds said we would fold
But young lovers can’t be told

(Chorus)
Down on one knee- watch me crumble
As we dove headfirst and stumbled
Against all odds, but watch us beat em’
Hello new world, goodbye freedom
Twenty years, where does the time go
So young, what the hell did we know
Then built a house to watch it fall
But young lovers, they know it all

Once it was you that felt like home
We lost ourselves upon that throne
All the memories and milestones
Drifting towards the great unknown

Hindsight said we fought too long
Proving the inner demons wrong
But no one could’ve told us so
Were just kids twenty years ago

/chorus/

(Bridge)
Looking back now on those dreams
How just one smile changed everything
We tried so damn hard not to be
Like all the rest that we failed to see

Young lovers, they weren't so strong
Grew up only to be proved wrong
That’s okay, that’s fine by me
It hurts but there’s worse things to be

Than young lovers turned friends
Still do it all over again
Would it be better, who’s to say
Had young lovers not had their way


/Repeat chorus/

At times I wondered
Will I ever measure up
To you I fall short
Deep down I know I’m enough

You’ve been so busy
Pointing out every flaw
Can’t say I agree
With anything you saw

I don’t need makeup
Don’t need fancy dress
Honey I just wake up
And I’m impressed, you see

(Chorus)
Of all the ways you made me
Feel less than
I’m at my best just the way I am
Of all the ways you told me
I should be
I just shine when I’m perfectly me

Your words don’t phase me
Baby, I’m not the norm
Must really drive you crazy
That I won’t conform

See I don’t need to be
A part of your creation
Honey, I just wake up
And I’m a true sensation

/Chorus/

(Bridge)
No, you don’t get me
I doubt you ever will
You don’t accept me
Ooh, but I love me still
Maybe I’m just foolish
But never was I hopeless
And life will go on
Whether or not you know this

Your words won’t phase me
Baby, I’m not the norm
Must really drive you crazy
That I won’t conform

Of all the ways you made me
Feel less than
I’m at my best just the way I am
Of all the ways you told me
I should be
I just shine when I’m perfectly me

At times I wonder
Why I tried to measure up
Don’t deserve me if you can’t see
I’ve always been enough

Repeat chorus and fade

A lifetime of subtle death
Waiting for your final breath
Another drink of despair
Helplessly watching you there

Take it in till you’re empty
Don’t you worry bout me
Not that you ever did
Though I was just a kid

A spec of dirt on this earth
No value in my self-worth
Oh, but I survived somehow
Think you’d be proud of me now

(Chorus)
Now I pray to the Lord above
And I’ve learned how to love
But it don’t come freely
Found so many reasons to live
And I gained some perspective
But it don’t come easy
Wondering if you're proud of me

Was a time I walked your path
Time and again I felt the wrath
Nothing more of myself to give
Watching you not want to live

I wasn’t reason enough for you
Don’t deny- you know it’s true
I wore the noose and walked the line
Guess it just wasn’t my time

/chorus/

(Bridge)
Pieces of my soul shattered
Fragments of my heart scattered
Now that I’m whole once again
Be proud of me if you can
I’m grown but the child lives on
Even now that you’re gone
And because of all you’ve done
You’ll never see who I’ve become

I know freedom but not from fear
I know joy though you’re not here
I wonder as you’re looking down
Mother, are you proud of me now

Tell me was it fake
Or just too real
Was it nothing more
Than something to feel

Just a way for you
To keep passing time
Glad I could help you
Get her off your mind

Now I’ve thought it through
Guess you’re all the same
Played with a jerk or two
Who only deals in pain

(Chorus)
Shoulder to cry on
It’s the least I can do
I’ll lose myself honey
To show up for you
And be nothing more than
A shoulder to cry on

Must’ve lost my number
Forgot my address
Selective amnesia
Is really the best

Ooh, some kind of hell
Disguised as paradise
One thing I don’t need
Is another vice

/chorus/

(Bridge)
No, won’t be a shoulder
For all of your fears
You won’t be the reason
I lost all those years
No shoulder to cry on
I won’t lend an ear
I won’t waste my time
Anymore my dear

Shoulder to cry on
When nightmares come true
Shoulder to cry on
When your dreams fall through

Shoulder to cry on
If only you knew
Shoulder to cry on
Now I need one too

I should’ve believed you
When you showed me who you are
Shame on me for ever
Taking it this far

Said you were bad news
So I guess there’s no excuse
I just chose to believe
All the best in you

(Chorus)
Baby don’t be mad at me
For being the mirror
You can't bear to see
I won't be your lesson
This mirror wasn’t built
To change your reflection

There’s no crime in
Me speaking honestly
I won't do time
For what you did to me

And stories you tell
Your false narratives
May have warned me well
But it’s no way to live

/chorus/

(Bridge)
You right fighter, endless denier
With your ego intact
Hope it’s worth all that you lost
Cause you won’t get it back
Stay outta my head and outta my bed
It’s too late to pretend
That it was love, when push came to shove
You weren’t even a friend

/Chorus/

Wish I'd believed you
When you said it’s like a switch
And you’d manipulate
Just to scratch an itch

Wish I'd known better
Cause you had nothing to lose
Just hope I keep them
From walking in my shoes

So don’t be mad at me
Cause I was the mirror
You can't stand to see
Save your affection
Hope one day you can
Stand your own reflection

*Currently being recorded*

I’m afraid to live
And I’m afraid to die
I’ve got so much to give
Still I don’t know why

I settle for less
When I want it all
I could climb so high
Yet I take the fall

Every time for you
I just shut the door
Then I lose hope
Of anything more

(Chorus)
You know I could grab it
If it wasn’t out of reach
I swear I could learn it
If only they'd teach teach
I could surely fake it
If I knew how to act
I know I could take it
If they gave the facts
Then they'd know the real me
Behind the anxiety

Just wasting away
Inside my soul
Any moment now
I could lose control

How nice it would be
If life were fair
So much waits for me
But I just don’t dare

/chorus/


(Bridge)
What if I lose hope
And never break through
I might be afraid to love
But I’m more afraid not to
Cause you see, I believe
Though I don’t know why
That I wasn’t born
With wings that won’t fly

/chorus/

No, won’t let you take
The best part of me
I’ll bend but not break
From you, anxiety

I’m larger than life
And despite it all
Now I know I can fly
I'll fly before I fall

Love of my life
I’m not in love anymore
Never though forever
Would be such a boor

Love of my life
Deep down you know I tried
In the end it seems
That our hands were tied

Still we held on
Trying hard to be strong
But in the end my love
I did do you wrong

(Chorus)
Love of my life
I’d be lying if I said
I laughed more than cried
Felt alive more than dead
Why can’t you see
It tears me up inside
That we’re not meant to be
All dreams and hopes aside
Love of my life
What more could we do
My love we did our best
Knowing what we knew

For years I’ve been torn
Wondering what is real
And now it’s time that I
Learn how it is I heal

Without the love
That was my life
The reason for my smile
Say we can meet once in a while

/Chorus/

(Bridge)
Love of my life
One day we’ll move on
A distant memory
Of a time come and gone
Love of my life
One day we will know
What is possible
By letting each other go

Love of my life
I’m not in love anymore
I guess forever
Was too long to wait for

Love of my life
Did the best we could do
Where would I be love
Had fate not led me to you

Ain’t it funny how they let the good ones go
And keep the ones with nothing to show
From the top down, ooh, they did us wrong
No one stepped in, they just played along

All the while giving way more than we got
Such is the case of the haves and have nots
Such is the fate of those who do what’s right
Sometimes the green stuff really darkens the light

(Chorus)
If it’s greed that keeps you going
And money’s your best friend
Don’t take it lightly- you can’t
Take it with you in the end
If climbing the ladder
Is all that matters
Well, maybe you should know
Can’t buy the keys to Heaven and
Can’t take it with you when you go

Never in a million years would we choose
To be sitting here- with blue collar blues
Still it was clear what would be done
Said there’s always more where we came from

Don’t you worry bout how we’re supposed to live
In such a hurry to be more cost effective
Oh but surely spend dollars to save dimes
And if you ask me, well that's the bottom line

/Chorus/

(Bridge)
So you’ve got power- how does it feel
Knowing that to some- you’re a big deal
So you’ve got strings- that you can pull
A million ways to- be an asshole
Don’t worry bout us- we’ll be just fine
Karma wears the crown- ooh, every time
/chorus/

So incompetent and so hell-bent
On making me pay, I don’t represent
The two faced or the waste of space
Still I wouldn’t doubt if you’re replaced

By one of them, a really good friend
In the finest suit, willing to pretend
Can’t unsee once you find the lens
My blue collar blues until the end

I don’t wanna let you go
With so little left to show
You say it’s all in good time
But life is short and you don’t know

To you my love, my friend
Gets so hard to pretend
You say there’ll come a day
But it feels more like the end

(Chorus)
Cause I can’t win- only lose
I can’t even sing the blues
Cause this crazy heart of mine
Knows that it’s on borrowed time
My dear love-my dear friend
All the time that I spend
Trying to right the wrong
Of knowing we don’t belong- I can’t win

And if I found a way
Tell me what would you say
That you wouldn’t let me go
But life is short and you don’t know

To you my love, my dear
Just wanted to keep you near
You say it’s all in good time
And that’s my biggest fear

/CHORUS/

(Bridge)
And this time I borrow
Will it end in sorrow
Could it be too late
Tell me now- is this our fate
Well, I can’t wait no more
Cause all I’m searching for
It still lies deep within
Your blue eyes- I can’t win

No I can’t win- only lose
No matter which path I choose
Cause this crazy heart of mine
Still beats for you each time

My dear love- my dear friend
It’s so hard to comprehend
There’s a chance we got it wrong
Thinking that we don’t belong

I’m talking in circles
While they dance on my grave
I’ve been resurrected
This time I won’t behave

(Chorus)
I’ll never meet my maker
I’ll never reach the end
No, I don’t fear the Reaper
Or any of his friends
I’m not going out like that
Oh, this time around
I’ll keep coming back
Don't you know I’ve found
Living again's where it’s at

Please don’t talk as if
I’ve faded away
You see the truth is
I’m seizing the day

No, don’t you act like
You are rid of me
I’m not one to fade
Into obscurity

/chorus/

(Bridge)
It’s in the music, all of me
Hear the words and there I’ll be
Every photo, every page
Is just me setting the stage
For my greatest comeback yet
To ensure you never forget

How to live again
You know it’s a sin
Giving up before
We even begin

No, I won’t argue
This I won't defend
You’ll remember me when
When I lived again

Repeat chorus and fade

*Currently being recorded*

You’re a vision
Poison to my soul
Like a religion
Ooh, you make me whole

I sink my teeth in
Can you feel the sting
Do you believe in
Having everything

I pour my heart out
All because of you
So don’t ever doubt
I’ve always been true

(Chorus)
You grabbed hold of my heart
Like a vise grip
And taught me that to love
Was to worship
Got way down inside
Now I can’t leave
So consumed I believe
I need you to breathe

You’re a lover
To everyone but me
So what do I have to do
Who do I have to be

You’re a winner
But you’ll lose it all
Ruthless sinner
They come each time you call

/chorus/

(Bridge)
Will you ever see
That my love was real
Waiting for you
To let yourself feel
Will you ever know
How hard I tried
Waiting for the day
You weren’t dead inside

/chorus/

I know you get off
On watching us fools
Teaching that to care
Is to be cruel

But then you create
What it is you fear
Oh so self-absorbed
That you just disappear

I can’t live with you
Can’t live without you
And I don’t believe you
But who am I to doubt you

No, I don’t want a life
Where it’s sink or swim
And I refuse to drown
Searching from within

No, I don’t want a love
Where it’s do or die
Cause that’s no way to live
Always asking why

(Chorus)
We can’t be lovers
Can’t just be friends
We can’t break up
We can’t make amends
Won’t settle for lies
But the truth is too much
See, I can’t live with
Or without your touch

No, I can’t take you
Can’t leave- I’m unable
As if chained and bound
Escape’s not on the table

Wondering if I like you
But knowing I adore you
No, I can’t live with you
But you know I live for you

/chorus/

(Bridge)
Can’t get too close
But please let me hold you
Don’t know what hurts more
Not knowing what is true
Or feeling that maybe
Deep down we really do
But won’t end the cycle
We put each other through

No, we can’t walk away
Any more than we can stay
History’s shown we won’t
Be happy either way

No, we can’t move on
Or seem to right this wrong
Only hope one day to find
Where it is we belong

Repeat chorus

*Wrote this decades ago. Most of my songs are autobiographical and this one's no different. Happy to say I've been clean for decades as well, but I can relate for sure.


Watching the clock
Running out of time
See me losing a grip
Maybe even my mind

Hoping for meaning
Needing a purpose
Might take forever
Just to scratch the surface

(Chorus)
But I have to try
This can’t be the end
Barely getting by
With my evil friend
Yeah, you gotta try
So that life goes on
If you don’t it's goodbye
So try and be strong

Still I get so lost
In life’s complexity
Was so much easier
With my friend next to me

Your skies are blue
And troubles are fewer
Till you read between
The lines on the mirror

/chorus/

(Bridge)
The world is mine
I’ll seize the day
Make it last forever
If I give myself away
My hands are tied
My nerves are fried
Yeah, I know I lied
But it was justified
I break down and cry
Can’t kiss it goodbye
Cause I need the high
No, I don’t know why
I’m so afraid to fly
Don’t really wanna die
So please help me try

Repeat chorus and fade

It took us by surprise
What more could we say
One look in your eyes
Time just slipped away

More than just good friends
Oh, what have we here
Too late to pretend
These are happy tears

Cause I have someone
Who always treats me good
Oh, but only you
Make me feel like I should

(Chorus)
Still what a ride
It drove us crazy
Who cares if it’s
Just a dead-end baby
Deep down inside
Knew it had no chance
Oh, but what a ride
What a crazy circumstance

When they warned us
Told em where to go
Who were they to fuss
Bout what they don’t know

Sometimes I hated you
Yeah, but I loved you too
Baby what a ride
We put each other through

/chorus/

(Bridge)
Sleeping all day
Crying all night
I’ll get over you
Even just for spite
Then come back again
Cause I can’t pretend
That to stop this ride
Could really mean the end

/Chorus/

Baby, what a ride
Still we always knew
That deep down inside
Nothing we could do

Till fate played its part
Like it always does
Then it would break our hearts
But what a ride it was

You and me
Took the hard road babe
The one less traveled
The only one not paved

This song was
It was meant to say
That we overcame
Everything in our way

But the Universe
It had other plans
The words only came
As it slipped through our hands

(Chorus)
People like us try so hard
Against all the odds
And despite who we are
People like us won’t believe
In fairytales
Cause we’re all that we need
All we needed to trust
But no time is right
For people like us

You and me
Took the hard road babe
Full of twists and turns
Leading us astray

We dove in
Our boxing gloves on
It was worth the fight
Cause our love was strong

/Chorus/

So damn good
Till it got so bad
That we lost our way
We lost all that we had

Cause people like us try so hard
Against all the odds
And despite who we are

People like us don’t believe
In fairytales
Cause we’re all that we need

All we needed to trust
Guess no time is right
For people like us

(Bridge)
Though our love ain’t from
Harlequin pages
Complicated and messy
Was one for the ages
Thought you were the one
Bet my life on it
I’m not one to dream
But I let myself want it
At least we can say
Can say that we tried
To live in our truth
But sometimes hearts lie

People like us, we begin
Playing the game
Thinking one day we’ll win
People like us walk the line
Of love and hate
Yeah, we’re doing just fine
People like us always choose
To fight the fight
Whether we win or lose

Or we’re against the rope
And dreams turn to dust
No, I won’t lose hope
For people like us

You’ve got me thinkin
That you could be mine
Got me not caring if
I’m wasting my time

You’ve got me acting
Like a crazy fool
Even got me daring
To break every rule

You’ve got me trying
To let down my walls
There’s no denying that
We could have it all

(Chorus)
All it took was look
Now I’m hooked
But they don’t teach
This stuff in no school book
All it took was a glance
Now I’m entranced
But I’ve two left feet
When I should dance
All it took wasn’t much
Much at all
Brought me to my knees
Then watched me fall

You’ve got me singing
I can’t carry a tune
You’ve got me higher than
A man on the moon

You’ve got me dancing
Out in the street
Carelessly chancing
My own defeat

/chorus/

(Bridge)
You’ve got me seeing
For the first time
Things in color
Once thought I was blind
You’ve got me wondering
What took me so long
All it took was you
To inspire this song

All it took was a look
Now I’m hooked
No, they can’t teach
Our love in no school book
All it took was to feel
Something so real
To show me that
I really could heal
Stole my heart
Like a thief- like a crook
And the best part
Finding you is all it took

Your smile, it kills me in a good way
I’ll take a slow death if I die this this way
I’ll take my last breath willingly today
Oh, but I can’t make you want to stay

Your eyes, melt me into the ground
It’s not the same when you’re not around
And your voice may be sweetest sound
But I can’t hold onto what I’ve found

(Chorus)
Maybe in another world
Maybe in another life
I could’ve been your girl
I would’ve been your wife
Feeling the spark
Between us two
Lighting a fire I never knew
Still, it would do nothing to you

One look does things I can’t explain
When you’re gone, you know I go insane
If this is all, still won’t change a thing
But I can’t keep from wondering

Why your laugh’s a joy I’ve never known
Just the thought of you- I’m not alone
And it’s the only time I feel at home
But I’ll never have you for my own

/chorus/


(Bridge)
I know it makes no sense
Maybe it sounds it’s absurd
But in my defense
Hanging on every word
No, it wasn’t love
But lust alone won’t do
No, it’s not a lie
Please know this much is true

The girl who gets you is a lucky one
When your eyes meet with the morning sun
One look- and you will feel it all
One touch- the deeper you will fall

Though she won’t get you like I do
She’ll never know the pain, it’s true
Of meaning nothing to you

Maybe in another world
Maybe in another time
I won’t be the girl
Who’s lost her shine
Waiting on someone
Hoping to get through
She’ll know you’re not the one
If she means nothing to you

Running on a road
Through the sky
Traveling light years
Never felt so high

Swimming through my mind
The galaxy
So many things
It wants me to see

Wanna do it all
But what comes first
No time to waste
In my Universe

(chorus)
You see the trouble’s brewing
It may be my undoing
You think you thought you knew me
Look what these thrills do to me
It’s only life that kills you
So best do what thrills you
No, I don’t need fame or limelight
Just fun, love, and thrills tonight

I can feel the sting
Of the endorphins
A bolt of lightning
Under my skin

No more time frames
Endless mind games
Cause I’m happy
Just a tad insane

/chorus/

(Bridge)
Restless souls- see them take flight
We’re warriors deep in the night
Hearts of steel worn on our sleeve
Are we real or just make believe
And this crazy life that we chose
Could ask why- but only God knows

I keep coming back
No, I won’t refrain
Knowing the pleasure
Is worth all the pain

This adrenaline rush
As my gut spills
It’s never enough
So give me more thrills

Repeat chorus and fade

She never knew what she had
She treated you so so bad
She’s the reason there’s three of us
In this relationship because

She couldn’t make up her mind
No she just wouldn't take the time
Now she’s the reason that I can’t stay
Here with you one more day

(Chorus)
Well she, touched you in ways I’ve only dreamed of
And all I ever wanted was to give you my love
But I can’t be the one, after what she’s done
Then she, hurt you in ways that I’d never dream of
All I ever wanted was to give you my love
No, I can’t be the one after what she’s done

You gave her all your affection
You wasted so much attention
You gave her the sun, moon and stars
But you let it go way too far

It breaks my heart you fail to see
She’s the one between you and me
I have to admit- it hurts to say
Now guess I best be on my way

/chorus/

(Bridge)
Shame on me for trying
To fix your wounded soul
By the time I stepped in
She was in control
I know you think the past
Ooh, that it’s dead and gone
You should know from where I stand
You couldn’t be more wrong

We never really had a chance
She cut in on every single dance
There’s nothing more I can do
When there’s three of us here- not just two

I know that you think the problem’s me
Blame it on my sensitivity
You will never find love to last
Till you agree to heal your past

Still she, touched you in ways I’ve only dreamed of
All I ever wanted was to give you my love
But I can’t be the one, after what she’s done
Then she, hurt you in ways I’d never dream of
Now someone else’s gonna get all my love
No, you won’t be the one, because of what she’s done

I know your heart is broken
Cause so is mine
Despite what we told them
No, we’re not fine

You say that life’s not fair
Sometimes I feel the same
Despite the smiles we wear
No, we’re not okay

And maybe what we’re doing
Is us crossing a line
What if we’re only human
And we give in just this time

(Chorus)
Let’s not overthink it
Cause we’re only human
Worrying bout what we did
Is just us assumin
That we shouldn’t be here
Let’s just see where this goes
Cause fate put you and me here
What more is there to know

I know the days are longer
For you and me
Maybe a man who’s stronger
Would let you be

I know the nights are harder
Than we let show
Yeah, maybe a better man
Could let you go

/chorus/

(Bridge)
Yeah, maybe we’re mistaken
Some foolish lovers curse
Still it’s a chance worth takin
If it goes from bad to worse
Future’s not guaranteed, no
Not for us and not for them
Can’t they see we’re only human
So who are we to pretend

I know that since I met you
The months seem like days
Only you help me see through
The darkness- I’m still amazed

Maybe this thing we’re doin
Isn’t really a crime
And it’s ok to be human
And live for us this time

Let’s not overthink it
Cause we’re only human
Worrying bout what we did
Is just us assumin
That we shouldn’t be here
Let’s just see where this goes
Cause fate put you and me here
That's all I need to know

I know all the secrets
That you try to hide
I know all the demons
You keep locked inside

So much about you
Once tried to emulate
So much I see through
That it’s all turned to hate

Once I was fooled by
All you appeared to be
Now it seems the truth’s
Been revealed for all to see

(chorus)
So, tell me what made you this way
What delusions led you astray
What madness caused your sad state
Now I’ve cut the ties- I can’t relate
So, what teacher taught you so wrong
Feeding on your need to belong
Surely knew what they were doing
In the wake of all that’s ruined

I see now you’re evil
Sickness that is your mind
No end to the cruelness
So ruthlessly unkind

And I bet no sleep was lost
By you, you wouldn’t dare
Gotta win at all costs
Always more than your share

/chorus/

(Bridge)
You come off as straight-laced
But you’re wicked and two-faced
You’re a time bomb as you stand still
How the chaos looks so tranquil
All you ever do is pass the blame
Because it leads to your end game
A narcissist, you never knew
It’d come to this, well now you do

Destiny has been foretold
Won’t ask why or what for
No more buying what you sold
It’s just salt on my open sore

Wars waged on your attack
Since you opened that door
Lose that monkey on my back
But not until you lie no more


Chorus and fade

*Melody & vocal sample coming soon!


There’s a side of me inside of me
I just can’t show
Do I let it be or set it free
I just don’t know

It takes hold- I’ve been told
It goes away
It feels so cold being controlled
Words just can’t say

If I run when it’s begun
Then no one sees
It’s no fun being the one
Who’s never free

(chorus)
Well we can’t all be
The lucky ones
And it’s unlikely
That day will come
Can’t erase time
What’s done is done
But maybe make peace
With what we’ve become

There’s a side of me inside of me
I just can’t show
I’ve done the time for this crime
It still hurts though

It takes hold- I’ve been told
It goes away
It gets old breaking the mold
When no one stays

There’s a side of me inside of me
Like a disease
You know it's love, why I'm guilty
Of wanting to please

/chorus/

(Bridge)
Yeah, you say show me
But you won’t stick around
Won’t get to know me
Cause this thing you found
Isn’t wrong or right
Isn’t good or bad
In the dark of night
It’s the best you’ve had
In the worst of times
What else can I do
Can’t you see that I’m
I am just like you

We can’t all be lucky ones
Privileged, fortunate sons
No we can’t change the past
What’s done is done

We can’t all be lucky ones
Entitled, son of a guns
With little or nothin to show
Oh, but this I know

That if I run when it’s begun
Then I’ll fail to see
I’m a lucky one each time the sun
Shines down on me

Been grinding away
In search of greatness
But I don’t even see my name
On the wait list

So many chances
And more close calls
Letting my hopes rise
To watch them fall

Sometimes it feels like
Chasing unicorns
But giving up’s like forgetting
Why I was born

(Chorus)
If I live where dreams
Go to die
My truth's no more than
One big lie
If I let go of who
I’m supposed to be
For the status quo
Then shame on me

Getting rave reviews
From strangers and friends
Yeah I’ve paid my dues
And chased dead ends

But what they don’t know
What they can’t see
Is this thing inside is
Bigger than me

/chorus/

(Bridge)
They say it’s not good
To hang your hopes
On the other side
Of the velvet ropes
But without those hopes
There ain’t nothing left
But promises to myself
I never kept

So I refuse to live
Where dreams just die
At least I can say
I know I tried

When it runs this deep
It’s not a choice
Gonna sing till the world
Knows my voice

Won’t look back wondering
Is this all
Gonna fight the good fight
Till the curtain falls

repeat chorus and fade

Times are so tough lately
Don’t know what I’m gonna do
Like the end of the world & maybe
It’s closer now we’re through

So where’s the crystal ball
For me to look into
Need something to tell me all
That I’m supposed to do

If I could go back in time
There’s so much I’d redo
To change the past, this time
I would run back to you

(chorus)
The seasons changed- so did we
Right before our eyes you see
Spring came and rained on my parade
Hot summer nights- the love we made
Wintertime was when we met
Falls colors, no I can’t forget
But seasons changed- so did your mind
Tell me was it only a matter of time

Every time the flowers bloom
And the scent fills the air
Think about that day In June
You and me without a care

Every time the leaves, they fall
October memories
Still I hope that you recall
The way we used to be


Every time the snow blows in
Used to ruin all our plans
I can’t keep from wonderin’
Is this really where we stand

/chorus/


(Bridge)
We had a good thing & let it go
Seasons changed more than we know
Wish I could go back to that day
I’d find the words that I meant to say
Now I’m not yours & you’re not mine
And seasons are just wasted time


The seasons changed- so did we
Right before our eyes you see
Just like time, they’ve come and gone
Just like you, they keep moving on

Still, they’ll always have a way
Of showing us something new
Be looking forward to the day
When seasons catch up with you

Well you come around
In the dark of night
Mr. Mystery
Are you Mr. Right

Then you disappear
Into thin air
No one can see you
But you’re everywhere

Yeah, you’ve got the moves
And you know the drill
Then you’re gone before
I get my fill

(Chorus)
Mr. Mystery
Are you the one
Mr. Mystery
What have you done
You’ve captured my heart
Enveloped my soul
Mr. Mystery
You just take control

And so I brainstorm
Only to find
You’ve slipped through my hands
Running through my mind

Like a tidal wave
Or a hurricane
Well either I’m brave
Or I’m going insane

Mr. Mystery
The man of my dreams
Could you ever be
All that you seem

/chorus/

(Bridge)
Remove the mask
And I’ll lift the veil
I’m up to the task
And I’m on your trail
Then I’ll solve the case
Yeah, I’ll crack the code
To reveal the face
That you’ve never showed
See, the place is here
And the time is now
Still can’t help but feel
I know you somehow

Maybe this mystery
Will never be solved
But this desire in me
Just seems to evolve

Only time will show
What we’re meant to be
So until next time
Mr. Mystery

So many thoughts, still I can’t tell you what I’m thinking
I’ve taken many shots, but it’s nothin I’ve been drinking

Been trying to unwind, spent too much time daydreaming
Thought by now I’d learn, still I toss & turn, then it sinks in

Some dreams don’t come true, like ones of me and you
This pain is nothing new, but baby you make my head spin

(Chorus)
How could you leave me standing here
Fading fast in your rearview mirror
I know I could’ve changed your mind
But you left me far behind
No, you never gave us a chance
Did you even bother to glance
In your rearview mirror


So many dreams, and only then do you choose me
I’ve taken many hits, but not the kind that bruise me

Been trying to unwind, spent too much time daydreaming
Thought by now I’d learn, still I get burned, then it sinks in

Some dreams don’t come true, like ones of me and you
And lies are nothing new, but baby you make my head spin

/chorus/

Said so many words, yet so much goes unspoken
I’ve had many laughs, this time I don’t feel like jokin

Life’s been so unkind, keep wondering where you’ve been
Thought by now I’d learn, still I toss and turn, then you creep in

So now I see, things as they’re meant to be
Joke’s on me, now that we can no longer pretend

(Bridge)
Can’t face what I feel- drink that shot for real
And then shake his hand, like the bigger man
But deep down inside, guess it was all a lie
And the one I told myself just passed me by

You both left me standing here
Like a fool in your rearview mirror
No, never even told me why
Or bothered to say goodbye

Guess that’s how you’ve always been
And I was no exception
Next time it will be him
In your rearview mirror

Ever feel so down
You can’t get up
Waves crash, you drown
They won’t let up

Can’t tell a soul
How you’re hurtin’
Don’t wanna be
Nobody’s burden

So you eat too much
And drink too much
It’s how you cope
You need a crutch

Sometimes that’s just
The way it goes
Cause there are highs
And there are lows

Once you find that
The pain’s still there
One more sip of
Your electric chair

Where you eat too much
And drink too much
It’s how you cope
You need a crutch

Don’t dare tell them
That you’re depressed
You’ve tried so hard
Not to regress

Yeah, but sometimes
That’s how it goes
Cause there are highs
And there are lows

(Bridge)
Looking back on
Times I wasted
Swallowing pride
I can taste it
Living on time
That I borrowed
Can’t pay it back
Too broke for sorrow
What I would give
For these extremes
To land somewhere
In between
Feeling crazy
Or feeling numb
Say that free will
Can overcome

Feeling so down
You can’t get up
Waves crash, you drown
They won’t let up

What if this time
You share you're hurtin'
Might just lessen
Someone’s burden

No one's alone
Even in the throes
Of such crazy times
Being dealt these blows

You know it’s how
We learn to grow
Wouldn't feel the highs
Without the lows

When you look at me
I lose my inhibitions
So throw the book at me
It won’t keep me from wishin’

(Chorus)
I was the one
With you in the night
I was the one
Who made it right
I was the one
Oh why can’t you see?
I am the one
The only one you need

So hold me tight
It won’t take long
To prove I’m right
Where I belong

You see I know
How it’s gonna go
So take me here
Like you want to

Nothing to fear
It’s me and you
Cause we belong
It can’t be wrong

When you’re kissing me
All the doors fly open
So just listen to me
You know that I’ll be hopin’

/chorus/

(Bridge)
And in my dreams
Just me and you
Crazy it seems
This world anew
You see, I know
You feel it too
Just need to hear
These words from you

I’ll be the one
With you in the night
I’ll be the one
Who makes it right

I’ll be the one
And now you can see
There's no one better
For you than me

Were you ever really mine?
I doubt it
Wonder will it work this time?
I doubt it

Love and crazy’s a thin line
Try not to think about it
But no matter what I know
One look from you- there I go

(Chorus)
Maybe it’s all in my mind
Maybe it ain’t even real
You know I never could define
The way that you make me feel
Maybe I’m imagining
And this is part of the deal
Not good at these things
Just the way you make me feel

Are we truly meant to be?
I doubt it
Can I trust your words honey?
I doubt it

Seems my life’s on pause and I won’t
Allow it
All this pain you caused, I can do
Without it

/chorus/

(Bridge)
The way you’re looking at her
Feels like I don’t exist
If you were made for me
I wouldn’t feel like this

Maybe it's all in my head
But baby it's all that I know
You see I never could explain
Why I can't let you go

Maybe I'm delirious
Thinkin this could be real
But I'm dead serious
It's the way you make me feel

The ways your eyes light up
Whenever she’s around
Guess if you were the one
You wouldn’t let me down

It seems thin is the line
Between crazy and love
If you were meant to be mine
Why did I never, ever feel good enough

Yeah, I know what you’re gonna say
That you saw this comin’ a mile away
But where were you, when I needed help?
No, not a word, till the curtains fell

I don’t need you and your I told you so’s
Fickle friend, like the wind when it blows
Once liked you, but this side you’ve shown
Means you can’t leave well enough alone

(Chorus)
You seem to be disillusioned
Never asked for your intrusion
Tellin’ me what’s wrong and right
After the gift of hindsight
A fool could see the answers now
I don’t need you telling me how
To live my life- purge from my pores
A life where no one's keeping score

But I sense that you’re afraid
All that karma will be repaid
In the end, what will you do
If fate is anything like you

Maybe you’re right- and I’m mistaken
In broad daylight, senses awaken
Maybe it’s true- I should’ve listened
All along, things would be different

But isn’t that how you learn?
By screwing up and getting burned
You see, no one is immune
And everyone gets their turn

/chorus/

(Bridge)
You may see things I don’t
And fight to be right, I won’t
You might need it your way
And always have the final say
In the end it helps no one
After the deed is done
In time I will learn my lesson
Till then I’ll keep em’ guessin’

You and your disillusion
Only brings more confusion
Let’s just wait- see how it goes
Good or bad, who really knows?

Who’s to say, who makes the call
After the writing’s on the wall?
You’re no better- I’m no worse
It’s not about who knew what first

Just go your way, and I’ll go mine
Leave me be and I’ll be just fine
Best believe this time I’m through
No doubt you saw that comin’ too

*Aggressive sound with a drum thumping intro*

I hear the devil knockin’ on my door
Tappin’ on my window- poundin’ on my floor
Comin’ to get me- what am I to do
I commit another sin each time I look at you

(Chorus)
Can’t say I haven’t
Been here before
Somethin’ about you
Makes me want more
Can’t rise above it
I don’t know what for
What you do is heavenly
It's evil to the core

I hear voices callin’ out my name
Bringin’ me down closer to the flame
I see angels- they’re flying away
Even the good Lord gave up today

I feel thumpin’ deep inside my chest
Maybe my demise will be for the best
Nowhere to run now, nowhere to hide
I’m one step closer to the other side

Can’t say I haven’t
Been here before
Somethin’ about you
Keeps me wanting more

Can’t rise above it
Don’t even wanna try
What you do hurts so good
Makes me wanna cry

(Bridge)
This blissful purgatory
Don’t know what’s in store for me
I do know that you’re no good
Still I wouldn’t leave if I could
Such a painful fantasy
Don’t know how it ends for me
But no matter what it brings
No, I wouldn’t change a thing

I hear the devil knockin’ on my door
Tappin’ on my window- poundin’ on my floor
Comin’ to get me- what am I to do
I commit a sin each time I look at you

I know damn well I’ve been here before
Still all my senses keep beggin’ me for more
Yeah, you just might be the death of me
But you're all I'm livin' for

Thinkin about you
Pulls at my heartstrings
I sit here alone
Doing the right thing

I came so close to
Ending this fairytale
But I can't bring myself
To undo this spell

And I can't pretend that
All is fine and well
Doing the right thing
Sure feels a lot like hell

(Chorus)
People say that they're proud of me
All I feel right now is lonely
Then they praise how far I've come
They'd be amazed how I come undone
Making me out to be so strong
Tried so hard to right these wrongs
Yeah, people say that they're proud of me
But all I want is you here with me

Thinkin about you
Ain't like some new thing
Staring at the phone
All while wondering

What's it gonna take
When will it be the time
For me to erase
Your face from my mind

And I can't pretend
All is fine and well
Nor do I want to
Break free from your spell

/chorus/

(Bridge)
Buying me drinks to celebrate
Cheers for doin' what it takes
Breaking loose and moving on
So much better with you gone
No one knows what it's like
Or how damn hard I gotta fight
Just to get through the day
And pretend everything's okay
I'll fool myself- I'll fool em' all
Still the writing's on the wall

People say that they're proud of me
All I feel right now is lonely
Friends still think I'm over you
But I'm in deep- if they only knew

People say that I'm better off now
Still I wish you were mine somehow
They made me out to be so strong
But baby you, were my weakness all along

So you wanna take me down
Got your eyes on my crown
You should know
It's easy come, easy go

So you've made me out to be
Some kind of enemy
That's okay
There's really nothing more to say

You refuse to call a truce
Tell me now what's the use
In winning
Cause we both lost everything

(Chorus)
Save your weapons, worst enemies
It's memories that bring me to my knees
I can take the hits, the toughest blows
But my mind inflicts more than you know
No, there's nothing you can say or do
I haven't already put myself through
Can't you see- the damage is done
And it's clear to me, nobody won

Guess I'm the bad guy once again
Yeah, but every now and then
You forget
How you felt when we first met

Now it's you who commits the crime
While you take every last dime
Cause you can
But money never made the man

It's looking like it's too late
Oh, but I still appreciate
All I've learned
See, everybody gets their turn

/chorus/

(Bridge)
Do the old times
Mean nothing to you
Just some sad rhymes
That I hold onto
Do memories
Ever cross your mind
Like they do me
Till they cross the line
It feels so wrong
I'm my own landmine
Ticking time bomb
But the pain's just fine

Save your breath and your energy
You see I'm my own worst enemy
I can take the hits, the hardest blows
But my mind inflicts more than you know

It doesn't take much to break in two
Always been something I just do
So if ever you cared my dear
Please stay away- I'll take it from here

No, it doesn't take much to make me fall
You see, honey, I remember it all

There are reveries
I have yet to see
Revelations
Still unknown to me

Revolutions
But where do we start
They begin in
Your mind and your heart

And the more I know
It seems to me
That all the world
Is a mystery

(Chorus)
I'm not afraid
Of the unknown
I don't mind
If we're not alone
I don't dismiss
What I don't understand
Only brotherhood
No foreign land
No us and them
Only unity
Healing begins
With you and me

Destinations
We must travel
For mysteries
To unravel

If not this life
Then the next
No, I don't know
What to expect

But there's more to it
Than we're told
About dying young
And growing old

There just has to be
It seems to me
That all the world
Is a mystery

/chorus/

(Bridge)
It's quite alright
If you think I'm wrong
Just don't tell me
That I don't belong
It's not a game
Of win or lose
Even if we
Have different views
Cause we're all from
The same damn place
We're all part of
The human race

The more I know
It seems to me
We make it harder
Than it has to be

I'm not afraid
Of the unknown
Cause I can learn
From what I'm shown

Won't disregard
What I don't understand
I can change
And reach out my hand

There's no us and them
It's only we
And only love
Can set us free

Winds that whisper into my soul
Change the course of life
Come watch it unfold

They keep shifting, blowing away
If only I knew
What they have to say

(Chorus)
Cause the past has a way
Of depressing me
The worries of the future
They keep stressing me
All I ever wanted
Is to be happy
Keep the weight of the world
From crushing me
This zen kind of life
Taking over me
A zen kind of life
Will set me free

Tides that turn and wash me ashore
Once lost adrift
And searching for more

Until the birds, they called to me
Saying close your eyes
Yeah, breathe and just be

Watching the stars twinkle and shine
Saying look inward
For what's most divine


/chorus/

(Bridge)
Past lessons-no need for sorrow
Future fears- no need to borrow
See, all that counts is here and now
It's all that matters anyhow
Feel the flow of the energy
Coursing in and out of me
Kindred spirits, rays of light
It's a zen, zen kind of life

So much chaos we can't control
Won't chip away at
What's truly whole

No day is less than wonderful
No breath we breathe
Is trivial

If it's a choice, I want it all
No, nothing less
Than magical

Repeat chorus and fade

He won't hold your hand
He won't take you out
You agreed to the plan
Thought you could do without

You won't be on his arm
It's best they don't know
For now just play it cool
If it hurts- don't let it show

(Chorus)
From the start he told you so
Girl, don't you count on me
He warned you, didn't he though
Fun is all it's gonna be
Still he's like the air you breathe
You're in the palm of his hand
He's everything that you need
Oh, but he's only a man

Eyes are always on the phone
Cause you're at his beck and call
The more he pulls away
It seems the deeper you fall

Since you broke the golden rule
Couldn't keep it casual
Now you feel like a fool
Since when is love logical

/chorus/

No, he won't join you places
And you'll never be the one
Just a blank in countless faces
Once you thought it would be fun

Didn't you want this too
You agreed when you had your say
But back then you didn't know
That love would get in the way

From the start he told you so
Girl, don't you count on me
He warned you didn't he though
Fun is all it's gonna be

Still, he's like the air you breathe
You're in the palm of his hand
But in the grand scheme of things
He's only, only a man

(Bridge)
His finger you're wrapped around
Knew he wouldn't be tied down
Or be there in your darkest hour
Still you gave him all your power
Girl, when are you gonna learn
That these lessons will return
Love shouldn't burn till it bleeds
What about you and your needs

From the start he told you so
You'd be a fool to pretend
He warned you didn't he though
Only one way this could end

All those voids you filled with him
All the warnings be damned
He was never your everything
On that pedestal, is only a man

Well you do it because
You need it to get by
All the while knowing
It sucks your soul dry

And you do it because
There's bills on the table
You'd run away today
If only you were able

The timing, it ain't right
But what if it were
What would be different
If we had the cure

Then I'd say goodbye
To anything and everything
That doesn't get me high

Well I'd say so long
To the people and the places
Made me feel I don't belong

Yeah, I'd say farewell
To feeling stuck- trapped in a rut
I'd bust out of my shell

Ooh, ooh, of this I'm sure
If there was a cure

Well, you keep your head down
Try and pass the time
No, you won't get a raise
And you can't speak your mind

But you can dream about
A much, much better life
Where gone are the days
Of struggling and strife

Where you say goodbye
To anything and everything
That doesn't get you high

Well, you say so long
To the people and the places
Made you feel you don't belong

Yeah, just say farewell
To feeling stuck- trapped in a rut
You'll bust out of your shell

Ooh, ooh, of this I'm sure
When you find the cure

(Bridge)
Oh, do you remember when
You were just a child
When dreams felt so real
That you let em' run wild
No one could take away
The hope we once had
Back when we had the cure
It wasn't so damn bad
Now we don't cross that line
Just watch it as it blurs
But we still have the answer
See it's mine and it's yours

So, let us say goodbye
To anything and everything
That doesn't get us high

Well, let us say so long
To the people and the places
Made us feel we don't belong

Yeah, shall we say farewell
To livin' just to get by
In case you couldn't tell

Never been so sure
Baby we found the cure