Lyrics by sad kw33n

I took a really nasty fall
I shouldn't talk about at all
"Put a smile and pretend"
Yeah, i tried but I can't
Prayer in the shape of Zoloft
Trying to medicate the sorrow
That will chain me on my bed
And take over my head

But i want to fight a little
I want to try a little
Those walls that i put up
I want to tear apart
Risk to see beauty in the hurt
Risk to let me feel the dirt

Doctor gave me some new pills
A new rollercoaster begins
I don't think I'm strong enough
I don't want to drink them up
He can probably see right through me
That doesn't mean that he can cure me
My mind is dead on foreign lands
I walk around with bloody hands

But i want to fight a little
I want to try a little
Those walls that i put up
I want to tear apart
Risk to see beauty in the hurt
Risk to let me feel the dirt

I'll risk to venture in the ruthless cold
I might find warmth in a sweet touch o f love
I'll risk to face the world and its blade
See a pretty flower growing next to a grave

I want to fight a little
I want to try a little
Those walls that i put up
I want to tear apart
Risk to see beauty in the hurt
Risk to let me feel the dirt

Sometimes i feel the world upon my back
This world drained me from all i had
You say it breaks your heart
When i talk like that
And there's nothing more that i can give
This is not the life i thought I'd live
I can't hold your heart
Cause i fall apart

I'm not sober
But touch me like a mother
Say I'm looking pretty even though I don't
I'm a big mess
But take a hold of my hand
Only for today, could we share some loving words?

I don't want to burden you my dear
So i let my stupid walls appear
Still it breaks your heart
When I fall apart
And i'm sorry I can't give you love
Cause sometimes i think I'm not enough
And it breaks your heart
When i talk like that


I'm not sober
But touch me like a mother
Say I'm looking pretty even though I don't
I'm a big mess
But take a hold of my hand
Only for today, could we share some loving words?