Lyrics by Natasha Rhyne

verse 1

I learned to recognize the seasons

By the sunlight on my bedroom wall

Another year kept passing by me

And I didn't notice it at all

I heard the laughter through my window

I heard the world outside my room

While everybody else kept growing

I was learning how to hide the truth



Pre-Chorus

Mama said, "Come sit beside us"

Daddy said, "You'll be okay"

But I couldn't find the words to tell them

Why I kept pushing life away



Chorus

I'm the girl behind the closed door

Crying where nobody can see

Watching people live their stories

While my story's happening without me

And my family's hearts are breaking

Because they don't know what to do

I'm not trying to be distant

I'm just fighting battles they can't see me going through



Verse 2

My phone became my only window

Technology became my friend

I wrote my tears into my music

And played them back again and again

I watched my dreams collect like dust

On shelves I never thought I'd clean

I became a stranger to myself

And forgot the girl I used to be



Bridge

Do they cry when I'm sleeping?

Do they pray when I'm alone?

Do they wonder where their daughter went?

Even when I'm still at home

I never wanted them to worry

I never wanted them to hurt

But sometimes pain becomes so heavy

You forget what happiness is worth



Final Chorus

I'm the girl behind the closed door

Trying to find myself again

Turning all my tears into melodies

And all my scars into a hymn

Maybe one day I'll stop hiding

Maybe one day I'll finally heal

But until then, I'll keep on singing

Because music is the only thing that makes me feel